As many of you know my english lit class has recently taken over my blogging topics. I have been caught up in the hustle and bustle of life, school, and the ins and outs of life as a college student living in (gasp) Miami. So heres a little update on my life thus far:
I am currently 3 weeks away from my second semester as a college freshman. This semester has flown by, and I can say that I have grown more in these past 4 months than in the past 4 years... allow me to explain.
Appreciation is a word used often in my vocab. recently. Throughout high school I was as i like to put it "stable". My finances, my relationship with God, and my Relationship with my boyfriend at the time. The most hurtful thing in my life was the "family life" situation. Well, in the past few months much has changed. I am no longer financially independent meaning for the first time in my life I have to RELY on PEOPLE IE(my mom and G-Ma) for money. Hard hard hard concept for me to swallow.. (im hard-headed, I know Im working on it...) My relatinship with God also took a bit of a nose dive over the summer. Some know things i went through, but basically I was ignoring God flat out. I could see him calling me to a higher standard and moving my life in different directions than i chose to go. And my boyfriend situation took a turn for the worst, but not only that, i listened to the people around me about relationships rather than looking to God for what he wanted for my life.... so after being a mess for a few months... with some hard work, and some deep God time, heres what i have so far...
1) I've realized that dispite my pride, its ok to rely on my mom for things. I have found that having to go to my parents for money has not only made me appreciate their graciousness, but it has made me see how blessed I was before and how i still am so blessed. I know God is still calling me to tithe and I am doing so with the faith that he will provide, and guess what?? He Has.
2) For the first time and a very long time, my family is finally stable. I cant tell you how long it I have prayed for life to be just normal. And you know what, God always answers our prayers, maybe not in our time frame, but in his, and you know what? My mom is now getting married at the Ritz in Miami to a wonderful man of God... hows that for an answered prayer.
3) Finally, the big one... i started working in student ministry again... I cant tell you how good it feels to be where I feel like I belong again. I have been praying for just paitence in every aspect of my life. As far as relationships go, im done doing it my way. I am finally content waiting on Gods timing... if its today, tomorrow, next week, for 5 years... he has never let me down in any aspect, and I dont know why Ive doubted him in this area of my life.
So there it is... my life up until this point... lots has changed, some good and some bad, but I'm a work in progress and as long as I keep my feet on the ground and eyes on God, life is and will continue to be....GOOD!
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I am very happy for you. We will continue to pray for you. Learning, growing and excepting help from others is a hard thing to do and learn at times. Excepting God, believing and trysting Him fully is a challenge all of us face every day. Our skin, and brain at times is our enemy. We must listen and follow our hearts where the Holy Spirit communicates with us. We love you, and will continue to be here for you now and forever. Much love.... Scotty K
who is your mom marrying??
I'm glad you're doing well. It was kind of amazing to see you last monday!
love and miss you ashley =)
good stuff ash... don't worry about the finance stuff. we live in a country pushing independence, but the bible constantly tells us to strive for interdependence. its how we come closer together. one day you'll be making big bucks and able to help others who will be relying on you. keep it up!
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